Yes, not only was it Proton, but Pencil Beam as well.
My cancer was not all that different from yours, possibly a little more advanced. I had two biopsies in the preceding years, each showed two positive cores, with Gleasons of 3+3 and 3+4. My PSA at the beginning of treatment was 15.7, and increasing rapidly. Imaging showed extracapsular extension, meaning it was about to metastasize. I can no longer access the notes but I believe the T-score was three.
Looking back, I think it was the androgen deprivation that crashed me the hardest. I had nine months of it. They chose this, along with the seeds, to lessen the number of radiation treatments, which was only 22. A friend had warned me to try to get it in as small an increment as possible. They first proposed one nine-month injection (which I knew to reject), then a six month one, then a three month which I accepted.
But that was still too much. The timed release was very apparent. Each month brought a distinctly new, and cumulative, side effect – The first month was psychosis, the second month was shooting arthritis pains, particularly in my hands, and I think the third month was inability to get to sleep and hot flashes. By the end of the second month I was back at the oncologist saying we had to do something different, preferably surgery.
However, my surgeon of choice didn’t consider me a patient of choice, due to age and weight, and said the chances of permanent incontinence were high (as much as 1 in 3, if I remember correctly). I went back to the oncologist, who agreed to reduce the Lupron dosage to one month at a time. Even at that, the only way I managed to get through was to ask myself each month if I could possibly manage another.
The worst of the deprivation side effects (the mood problems – another story in itself) started to subside a couple of moths after the end of the Lupron. But my testosterone (always low, as is often the case with prostate cancer) didn’t rebound, and I didn’t have any energy or feel remotely like a human again until one of the oncologists gave me the go-ahead to seek T replacement therapy.
It was an extremely rough ride, and most days I wasn’t actually sure I wanted to make it. Many side effects remain – shrunken bladder, inability to get to sleep, decreased bone density, constipation, decreased white blood count, some lingering mood problems which I didn’t have before.
But I’m alive. The oncologist says if you make it five years without the reappearance of cancer, you have a 95% change of it not coming back. I’m at 52 months and feeling optimistic.
I read your story. Yes, we were not all that different. Amazingly close biopsies. (thanks for posting in here, it helps others to ask questions from their doctors) Another thing about why cancer sucks is behavior can vary person to person. Even its placement in the gland itself can generate different outcomes.
Looks like you caught it at an early time. As I posted in here so many times for others to be proactive. You either had a very good doctor or you (as I had to do) made sure my doctor knew I did not want to wait on a biopsy even though over the years I already had three. He finally agreed but he should have agreed 6 months sooner as my PSA was still going crazy. He was actually willing to wait another 6 months, I said no.
AS you know surgery wasnt really an option for me, unless I wanted to roll the dice with scalpel surgery and possible 20% fail rate that it would be successful . Besides that I was VERY concerned about incontinence with surgery. Both temporary and permanent. I was told if that is my #1 concern and #2 sex than without question in my case radiation was the choice to make for me.
Also my recovery time is almost instant vs surgery with outcomes depending on if and how much nerve tissue they made have damaged during surgery.
I kind of already knew this however they made it clear to me. The only problem with radiation is that if it comes back, you cant get radiation again and surgery is generally not an option either. However I was led to believe that the chances of it coming back is less with radiation then if I chose surgery. So it was a non issue. Surgical removal I was told does not mean that every cancer cell got removed, radiation will get some of the surrounding tissue to possibly kill any cells around outside.
The only thing that caught me off guard was the radiation itself. Staff was wonderful. you get to know them. I actually enjoyed going there. (I posted photos of me getting treated) First week I thought is this all there is to it? Second week I thought I could feel actual nerve sensations as I was getting my dose and after. 3rd week really started affecting me and getting more brutal, 4, 5 and 6th week I couldnt wait for it to be over. (all posted in this thread. Still I would choose radiation again for me personally.
So also posted in here the Dr did put in my notes the side effects and possible side effects. Im doing really well now almost 4 weeks after the last treatment. By that I mean, like almost a miracle the last week I have noticed significant improvements. Much like the doctor told me and put in my notes. It takes 2 to 3 months and he said I will return to 90% of my baseline before I started this routine. I went from 0 to now about 6 on a scale of 10 back to normal in about 4 weeks. FINALLY I am getting excited, it seems he is correct. I hope it continues and I think it is! I forgot about all this and was really starting to feel down about it. Then I looked at my notes in "My Chart" (posted in here) and it seems like things are moving exactly like I was told.
At first I was caught off guard. Frequent trips to the bath room all night to try to empty my bladder. Terrible for me (everyone is different though) I was told I might have a bit more trouble. But I haD no idea what that meant. IT WAS DEPRESSING AT TIMES.
Ok, so I am encouraged, at a new "high" mentally.
Now for the Orgovyx which is a hormone blocker and your post about Lupron. Between recovering from the tiredness of the radiation and the side effect of tiredness of the Orgovyx. I just feel lazy all the time EXCEPT when I get motivated such as playing pickleball or for example spent hours last week climbing in the attic of our new home installing a TV antenna. While I am involved in a project I really get into it. But wow, when I am done I just crash.
MY medical oncologist did tell me some men really have issues with this drug Orgovyx. I guess I am a bit lucky in that respect.
It's true it kills your sex drive so much, you dont even miss it, which is amazing for me while you take it but any of these treatments do. However with this drug within a week or two testosterone will start to ramp up quickly vs Lupron.
My biggest issue is the hot flashes. Wow, somedays it's nuts, even having one right now. But they go away within 4 minutes or so. It is a pain in the neck, yet Im kind of used to it but still nuts. Sometimes I get out of the shower, then 15 minutes later sweat like a dog all over again. *LOL*
The speciality pharmacy just called me this morning, they call every month before bringing the next 30 day supply to my house. 1 pill a day. The reason for the call is to find out about any other new medications, how I am feeling etc etc. Then a courier brings it to the house a few days later. This isnt a drug that can be filled at a CVS or Walgreens. I think the 6 month total cost is 15 to $18,000 covered by my Medicare Part D.
You really had a rough time with Lupron and even though I am not in that respect I am sure in other side effects I have had extremes. Such as I am surprised at how beat up I felt with the 28 radiation treatments. Towards the end of the treatments my Dr offered a few day break from them before finishing up. Meaning the weekend plus a few days he says he offers his patients. I told him to keep going and lets "plow through this"
Im rambling on, nothing new. It's awesome hearing your story. As you know, it's a subject that so many men wont talk about and it's time that changes because this cancer sucks and still to this day media kind of glosses over it. You are young and I am glad you are feeling upbeat. Im a young 68. When people met me and age come up, they question it. Including sometimes medical personal.
SO yes, we are alive and I hope our stories get people to their doctors sooner rather than later as the odds of beating it are PROVEN to be MUCH greater the sooner you deal with it.
Thanks for posting and good luck! Yes, you have good reason to be optimistic as I because we dealt with it at an early stage.