my own experience with some of the handguns mentioned here:
sig p238. ok recoil, racking, fieldstripping. couldn’t get used to m1911 “cocked and locked” carry mode. sold.
taurus spectrum: ok recoil. pleasant to hold but a tad difficult to rack. fieldstripping was darn near impossible with oem guide rod & uncaptured recoil spring, needed leather gloves to reassemble. aftermarket captured guide rod & spring made fieldstripping easy but caused ammo feeding issues. sold.
bersa thunder. stout recoil. bloody slide bite on web of shooting hand. safety lever sheared off while at shooting range (known problem per bersa forum). sold.
s&w shield ez. truly easy mag loading, recoil, fieldstrip. upside down grip safety requires absolutely firm and proper shooting hand grip…can one always do so in a fast-paced emergency?
9mm trigger reset way too mushy, continually thought i had a failure. sold. 380acp seems better, only keep it because it’s my only 380acp pistol and i have a stash of ammo.
charter arms pitbull 9mm revolver. very, very stout recoil. roughly made, beat up my shooting hand by 50 rounds. sold.
nobody strengthens with age. while i might suggest a non-airweight s&w or taurus j-frame revolver loaded with 38sp wadcutters for now, i urge adding a decent 22lr semiauto pistol for the near future. mine is a ruger sr22 loaded with cci ammo, standard, blazers or minimags for practice, stingers for carry. it is reliable, small enough to ccw, and cheap & pleasantly unintimidating to practice alot. consistent accuracy with a happily familiar 22lr pistol always beats misses with something bigger.