I was using a literary mechanism called "sarcasm". Perhaps you have heard of it, but just in case have not, here is a simple definition:
sarcasm
/ˈsärˌkazəm/
Sarcasm is a form of verbal irony where a speaker says the opposite of what they truly mean, specifically to mock, insult, criticize, or express irritation. It is distinct from plain irony in that it is a targeted, personal attack, usually delivered with a biting or exaggerated tone.
So, no, I was not actually wishing for depression. Just the opposite. Hope this helps!