Tony,
We've never met other than in BITOG. I'm in a nursing home for over 6 years, after a crash and burn. Keep your faith and also in yourself, you will get better. It's tough but you will prevail. It takes time, too much it may seem. You have a lot of guys pulling for you. I'll include you in my prayers from now on, I have a good prayer system, just about like BITOG, it hits about every thing. Never Never ever give up! Winston S. Churchill.
Be Well...Paul.