Originally Posted By: shiny
Originally Posted By: qwerty1234
Garak, I don't give a rats tail about what society deems "safe driving". When I fell off the fork lift at work I was rushed to the hospital with a BAC of .28. Thankfully, the union kept me gainfully employed. My thread was about how bad inner city crime is in my great city of Chicago. Which no one has acknowledged.
querty, people are taking time to give you life-saving advice but you're not listening. The Good Lord gave you two ears, but only one mouth. Think about this.
Yes, Chicago has terrible problems with violence. Acknowledged. But you can't solve it and neither can anyone else here. Societal violence is not something you should be concerned with now, not when you need to be fighting for sobriety with everything you've got.
You have a progressive, fatal disease called alcoholism. Left unchecked, it will destroy your relationships, the lives of innocent people and ultimately kill you. Is that what you want?
You're still rationalizing your drinking, trying to find a way to be in recovery without really having to change your relationship to alcohol. That won't work.
Your addicted brain is playing tricks on you, distracting you from what you need to be focusing on. Every minute you spend on an oil forum arguing about drunk driving laws and Chicago violence is a minute spent avoiding recovery. Any distraction you allow yourself is really your addiction trying to make you slip, and deep down you know it.
Go to as many meetings as you possibly can- once a day, twice a day! and really listen. Work your steps with an honest heart and listen to your sponsor. Unless you want to die and take innocent people down with you, do not allow any distractions from your recovery program for at least one year.
If you're going to be on a forum, make it an AA support forum.
We can wrap this thread up right there.
Qwerty, there are apparently 5,000 AA meetings in the Chicago area. Talking about this at a meeting, where everyone understands where you're coming from, will be much more constructive than getting into it again here, where reactions tend to swing toward contempt for your behavior.
Best of luck.
https://www.chicagoaa.org/